From Sacrament this morning

Savior, may I learn to love thee,

Walk the path that thou has shown,

Pause to help and lift another,

Finding strength beyond my own. 

Savior, may I learn to love thee-

Lord I would follow thee.

Who am I to judge another

When I walk imperfectly?

In the quiet heart is hidden

Sorrow that the eye can't see.

Who am I to judge another-

Lord, I would follow thee.

I would be my brother's keeper;

I would learn the healer's art.

To the wounded and the weary

I would show a gentle heart.

I would be my brother's keeper-

Lord, I would follow thee.

Savior, may I love my brother

As I know thou lovest me,

Find in thee my strength, my beacon,

For thy servant I would be.

Savior, may I love my brother-

Lord, I would follow thee.

Text: Susan Evans McCloud, b.1945

Music: K. Newell Dayley, b. 1939

John 13:34-35

1 John 3:16-19; 1 John 4:21

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I am feeling rather uninspired lately. I can't quite put my finger on it, but I am feeling a restlessness and a disquiet. There are amazing things going on in my life, and I am excited about them.
But there is an unease. Perhaps it is the BP, but whatever it might be, it is bringing me down.
In an effort to focus on the great things that are happening, and perhaps reduce the anxiety I am feeling, I am going to talk about some of the things happening.
First, is a lot of waiting. I am in the process of getting the bariatric surgery. The support has been fantastic. Makes me wonder if people have been thinking I needed it all along. Which they probably have. Which doesn't really surprise or bother me. My mom and Aunt Cheli are going to try to come out and help me when I have it done. Cheli has had the surgery, recently, and has done an amazing job. She says it is the hardest thing she has ever done, and the fact that she feels that way and is so supportive of me doing it makes me very happy.
The second is that I got a new calling in church. This is good news and bad news. Well, maybe not BAD news, but it definitely contributes to the uneasy feeling. I am now a Relief Society teacher. Sigh. It could be worse.
I don't know how. I have so much insecurity and anxiety wrapped up in RS and teaching in general. Add them both together and I am paralyzed with fear. I will get over it. there is a story about President Hinckley writing to his father about his fears on a mission and his father replying "Forget yourself and go to work." This is the new mantra for me, I think. Forget yourself and go to work.
I got a temple recommend for the first time in a little over a decade. This feels really good, but also causes me anxiety. I have not been in a long time. LONG time. I hope I can feel like I belong there again. I am nervous. But happy.
So there it is. I am nervous but happy. And trying to forget myself and go to work.