This seems to be a month for big decisions. I have another one to let you in on. I have withdrawn from my classes for this semester.
I know it seems a little extreme, but given the last four months and how I did last semester, I just feel like it is best to wait until I am more stable before I go investing all that time and energy and money into something that I am currently dreading and that causes me more anxiety than enjoyment. I have not decided to quit school, just to wait and see how this semester plays out mentally before I go jumping in again. I have discussed it with Richard, extensively, and he and I agree that this is the best choice for now.
I am open for new opportunities, whatever they are. I am confident that this is the right thing. For now.
So there is that.
Well, I should qualify the statement about new opportunities. I am open to them as long as they don't involve me being an independent consultant for anyone. LOL.
I think you have to follow your heart and your head. I had so much anxiety at the beginning of every class in every semester. But I never felt myself dreading it. I greatly looked forward to it. All of it, except for the problems of where would I sit, and who would I talk to, and would I be the fattest or oldest or most backward, uncool person there?
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you figured out what was best for you.